Tuesday, 22 August 2017
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Friday, 18 August 2017
Thursday, 17 August 2017
Wednesday, 16 August 2017
Tuesday, 15 August 2017
I have heard people say that people come into our lives for a reason, a season or a lifetime. But they never mention how difficult it is to ascertain which purpose matched which person. I have certainly had my experiences with people who became something very different than I thought at the beginning. Surely he could be counted in this group.
I met him on DeviantArt, somewhere one is not expecting trolls. Pretty much everyone else there is an artist themselves and trying to showcase some of their work online. On that site it is very commonplace to be respectful of what other people post, hoping that they will be respectful of yours as well. So I didn't understand what he was doing there at first. He did not seem to post anything other than pictures and memes he found, and not for the purposes of showcasing some type of photo manipulation. I was certain I was dealing with yet another troll, albeit on a very unlikely site.
On DeviantArt we don't have "subscribers" or "followers"; we have "watchers". He became a watcher of mine very early on when I joined about a year ago. As is my custom, I became his in return. He commented frequently on my art; and in return, I ignored his contributions most of the time. I was there to see artwork, not memes. And I didn't want to go out of my way to deal with someone who was clearly there to be a troll.
I found the above meme just now when I did a search of his username on Google. He also wrote status updates at least a few times daily which, as his watcher, I would also see. He was very funny and he would recognize the silliness in me if it presented itself. I think he appreciated that side of me more than most people. Somewhere along the way he started calling me "Garcia" but he never explained why. Probably just another trolling thing, I thought.
Days became weeks, then months. I was becoming less apprehensive about dealing with him. Sometimes I would post links to videos or things from other sites and I would tag him, knowing that only he would appreciate the humor within. And then a few days ago, I had a notification that he had sent me a note. Confused, I clicked on it. "I have really enjoyed our time together. You are gifted and intelligent and funny. I hope you can find comfort in your skin and love yourself. You deserve love and comfort." I was confused and worried. It seemed so final. I replied "There have been days for me (as for everyone) when I thought I couldn't smile at all. Then I would read a comment of yours and life would look less bleak. Thank you for your gifts of parody and satire. It has meant a lot to me. You're not leaving DA are you?"
There was no reply. No more status updates. No more memes. I even went to check his page and he was definitely not there. However I noticed that in his comments section, he responded warmly to people who reached out to him. There was no evidence of trolling at all. I think I am going to post a link to this blog on my page. Maybe he'll come back and see it and I can be "Garcia" again like before. Or maybe he'll just come back and I will get another chance to truly appreciate what he brought to my life. And maybe this time I won't mess it up.
Monday, 14 August 2017
Sunday, 13 August 2017
Saturday, 12 August 2017
Norman Lear is the iconic television writer and producer who produced such 1970s sitcoms as All in the Family, Sanford and Son, One Day at a Time, The Jeffersons, Good Times and Maude. His shows always seemed to favor the left side of the political spectrum. Characters would frequently deal with racism, feminism, poverty and so on. Even now I watch reruns on YouTube and wonder whether any of his characters had a "normal" day where they were not forced to champion social justice causes and the like. Lear never seemed to get off that soap box.
The character of Archie Bunker was probably one of his most well-known inventions. A loudmouth bigot who lived in Queens, New York with too many biases to mention. Not to mention the ceaseless arguments with his son-in-law, Meathead. Archie was meant to be a satirical character, used to highlight the stereotypes that plagued society. It seemed like everything was a political statement with him.
And then somewhere around the middle of All in the Family's run, a new spinoff was born: The Jeffersons. Now the patriarch (George Jefferson) had racist biases as well, but for some reason that never got the amount of coverage it did in the Bunker household. But anyone who is well-versed with the show has to admit that George Jefferson did not want anything to do with white people whatsoever. And George certainly wasn't portrayed as a simple-minded man like Archie Bunker. He was just a little eccentric, that's all. Now everybody nod in agreement.
Now at age 95, Lear seems to be hanging on for as many seasons as he can. I wonder if he feels a sense of pride for his contribution towards the modern SJW movement, or if he has ever had any second thoughts about the messages he has shoved down our throats for over 40 years. And now the players don't even need a script anymore. Every day is a dress rehearsal for the series finale, where we find out how much of society really lays at our feet, destroyed by the seemingly good intentions of men like Norman Lear.
Friday, 11 August 2017
Thursday, 10 August 2017
Wednesday, 9 August 2017
Tuesday, 8 August 2017
What a week this has been so far! First I finally reach my goal of 10,000 views on YouTube so I would be eligible for monetization. Then this morning I was looking at my Video Manager for some reason and I noticed the loveliest sight - little dollar signs next to my individual video view counts, just waiting for me to come along and turn them green. Yes, I am monetized now. I felt like I was floating around in a bubble. That is, until the bubble burst about halfway through the first page.
One of my videos I had done for my daily news commentary series called REACT had a sad looking yellow dollar sign among all of the proud green ones. I soon discovered that the yellow dollar signs mean that my video was deemed not advertiser-friendly. Thing is, I knew why I was denied monetization for that video. The bigger question then becomes am I going to let this change my news commentary at all?
Nope. My REACT items speak the truth about subjects that find too many people in deep denial. I want to spread the message that it is okay to speak up. People won't always like what you have to say, but you know that no matter what you have maintained a strength of conviction. And even if I never make more money than I would need for a cup of coffee, I will know that I tried to make the world a better place - one non-advertiser-friendly video at a time.
Monday, 7 August 2017
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Saturday, 5 August 2017
Friday, 4 August 2017
Thursday, 3 August 2017
Wednesday, 2 August 2017
I create content for social media - probably more than most people. And I have noticed some things that could be improved upon. In return, this can help us all hang on to that one frazzled nerve we have left from our three-dimensional lives.
Let it go If you don't like someone's post for whatever reason, it is not vitally important that you go off on a rant in the comments section. No one is waiting with bated breath to hear what you think. Want to see a different opinion? Make your own post. Until then, Felicia, shut the hell up and get over yourself.
Do not feed the trolls I made an amendment to this one not too long ago. It limits those regrets that you didn't land the perfect line and you let them get off so easily. So now I have made a deal with myself: I would think up the best comment I could come up with in that given situation...and THEN I would stop feeding the troll. It makes me feel much better. And I am blessed with genes that allow me to be both cold and cutting in equal measure. No point in wasting all that good fortune.
Your baby is precious...to you I don't mind seeing one or two pictures of your bundle from heaven, but why do I need to see 16 pictures of a newborn in the same onesie? How do you feel when other people do that to you? Exactly. Now stop it.
Quit it with the Victim Olympics already These people have no idea what is going on in anyone else's life because they can't shut up about their own drama long enough to pay attention. Want to know something? As humans we technically start dying when we hit 21 years old. All of us. Now put that in your pipe and smoke it.
Tuesday, 1 August 2017
I don't know where I was or what was occupying my mind the whole time Logan and Jake Paul were taking the internet by storm. With over 9 million subscribers each and rising, it looks like the Pauls have ascended to the ranks of YouTube royalty. And once I found out how old they were (22 and 20 respectively) all I could think is how young they are, how I am old enough to be their mom. But curiosity got the better of me and suddenly I had to know exactly what I had been missing. If anything.
First, I had to listen to It's Everyday Bro. I needed to know if I would be just as perplexed as everyone else as to why it was so popular. And I was perplexed. But really I saw Jake Paul as a goofy little kid. Not just because of his age, but because of his whole demeanor. He was a little kid playing Rap Artist and looked like he was enjoying the ride. Basically, the song is okay. I enjoy the weird compilations that the song has spawned so much more.
Without going into too much of the backstory, these brothers had a massive falling out. So there were a few diss tracks flying about, but the one that really landed was Logan Paul's track called The Fall Of Jake Paul. Now that rap song was fucking amazing. As someone who can really appreciate how difficult it is to write decent rhymes and then execute them, I was blown away. On some level, I felt bad for Jake because I got the strong feeling that he could never produce a track that would beat Logan's. He just doesn't seem to have that edge, that darkness to him.
So am I a Jake Pauler or a member of the Maverick Logang? If I had to choose for whatever reason, I think I would become a Maverick. I can't identify with Jake's childlike aura at all. But Logan's darkness and edge? Hell ya. That's me all day.
Monday, 31 July 2017
Sunday, 30 July 2017
She was very nice to me, a very warm person. And in my hiatus after Geek Wisdom ended, I had lost a great many people who supported me before. So I guess you could say I was impressed by encountering such a warm soul. And without inquiring further, I assumed that we were similar as creators as well. Then I began to notice the differences between us.
She was definitely a nice-looking person, and she definitely knew it. She made sure her makeup and hair were always on point in her videos, no matter how short the videos were. And she knew how to use halter tops and camera angles to her advantage; she would give off the impression of being topless while still wearing a top. But I still believed we had so much in common.
I was having trouble watching her videos in their entirety because of their length so I asked if she would consider posting them in parts (which, creators back me up on this, would have taken her minutes to do). That's when she told me about her video creating philosophy. I will use actual quotations from her, as long as they cannot be used to identify her: "Being a [video creator] Tanya and doing what an audience wants is like being Goldilocks and the Three Bears. Too hot, too cold...Like I always say I am a [video creator] for myself first...Like I say in this live show...public opinion doesn't affect me or what I do at all and never will..."
Shocked and realizing I was ready to walk away, I sent her one final comment, my last words to someone who I once described as a "warm soul". I knew I would never see her like that again. "Okay. I am a very different [video creator]. I have not had an easy life so far so I like to bring smiles to people's faces when I can, and enjoyment of my channel for however many people watch it. My channels is entertainment for others. My enjoyment comes from adding happiness to the lives of others. I would not reap nearly as many benefits from doing this if I was focused on myself all the time. Clearly we are very different people. Best of luck with your channel. I hope you can appreciate what I have shared here someday." And then I was gone.
Saturday, 29 July 2017
I truly believe that the head honchos at King Of Queens made a huge mistake roughly 19 years ago. And the more I learn about Kevin James and the way he spits on everyone, the more convinced I am that the role of Doug Heffernan should have gone to MadTV veteran Will Sasso.
Age In 1998 when King Of Queens first aired, Will Sasso would have been an energetic 23. Kevin James was already 33 years old. Even those figures alone would indicate that Will would have more stamina and be better able to keep up with the multiple series' and movies in his future. Don't think it matters? Kevin James, on another series now entitled Kevin Can Wait, seems to only have the energy to push out a sad King Of Queens reboot.
Memorable Roles Quick - name a role that Kevin James had before King Of Queens aside from his very occasional appearance on Everybody Loves Raymond! That's right - nothing. If it weren't for Ray Romano, you may not even know who Kevin James is today. Or care. Will on the other hand was part of the sketch comedy show MadTV where he had the opportunity to play some very memorable characters - an alcoholic Kenny Rogers, an accident-prone handyman named Paul Hinterman, and of course Steven Seagal. And that's just to name a few.
Fan Treatment This is a picture that Will Sasso posted on Twitter showing him with some fans of his. You'll notice who is taking the picture - it's Will. It would be great if I could post a similar picture of Kevin James with his fans, but he wants nothing to do with them. He doesn't want them to look at him, talk directly to him, and especially not ask him for a picture or an autograph. I don't know when Kevin James decided he was such a delicate genius and so far above speaking to the people who helped him to get to where he is today. Especially since if it were up to some of us, he wouldn't be there at all.
Thursday, 27 July 2017
I really do try to be tolerant of other people's quirks, but sometimes I just can't. And there are certain people I try to stay away from under any circumstances. I have broken them down into groups so you can see what I am talking about.
Fake people. I don't like fake people and I don't like letting myself get taken in by their little act. The best quotation I read about fake people was that if people gossip to you then they will also gossip about you to others. While I am not a superhero or villain, I still like to keep certain parts of my life quiet. Fake people can be gone at a moment's notice. Or they will ignore you all of a sudden until you walk away. Either way they can't be trusted.
Unsolicited advice givers. This has been a pet peeve of mine for decades. I also call them the "you should" people, because whether they are asked for their opinion or not, they want to be the ones to tell you what you should do in that situation. If I don't specifically ask for advice, keep your yap shut. I will let you know if I require your wisdom, trust me.
Social Media Stepford Wives These people freak me out, with their posts about a perfect life with a perfect husband and perfect children. They also make me gag. No one should have to go through life thinking that they will be accepted by their peers only if they are perfect. And no one should have to read this crap on their Facebook wall. Try being human for a change. You may actually like it.
Person who cannot deal with a dissenting opinion from anyone. Needless to say, I had a crash course in this during the campaign run in the US last year. People actually unfriended me over my political opinions. Glad to see that the 28 years you knew me meant so much to you.
Compulsive liars. This category can sometimes be very similar to the Social Media Stepford Wives, or it can be a category all its own. I hate being lied to. The one thing worse than being lied to is a person who lies and then doesn't own up to it when you catch them lying. I don't see a need to lie, but if you feel compelled to lie to me for whatever reason, then I should really be on my way. There's another sucker around the corner waiting to feast on your b.s.
Wednesday, 19 July 2017
I don't know what made me do it, but at least I am keeping a sense of humor about it. And now I have that ridiculous song running through my head, as it will likely do for my viewers tomorrow. Why does freedom so often feel the same as oppression? I don't know. Maybe in the course of writing this post I can figure that out.
Yes, that's me. The filter makes me look almost celestial and when I open my mouth to sing, that really seals the deal. The only problem is this: that is not my voice. I would classify my actual singing voice as "fair". I don't think it's something I could ever do professionally and I am fine with that. I just enjoy singing. It's something I indulge in daily.
I used to enjoy singing a lot more before someone on Facebook who I thought was a friend (for years) bashed my singing on a public page. Now obviously I know I am not a professional singer. And I certainly don't force anyone to listen to my songs. But he went out of his way to make me feel awful. Needless to say I have blocked him, but I cannot seem to forget criticism from anyone. Especially if I am blindsided by a "friend". So I made a change today, one I am still not sure about.
To put it nicely, I am using different effects for my solo songs. To put it crudely, I am auto-tuning the crap out of it. And this is not like me at all. And yet, here I am, trying to justify the high notes people will notice I hit on Lesley Gore's song "You Don't Own Me". Basically I used a filter that people feel compelled to use when their own voice just doesn't seem to be cutting it. But this is new and I may actually return to my normal voice in recordings. But if this means I won't be insulted because of my singing voice, I'll be whoever you want me to be.
Tuesday, 11 July 2017
All In The Family (1971-1979) was a sitcom about a loudmouthed bigot, his family, friends an neighbors. When the show first aired, there was a lot of backlash from people who did not care for the lead character, Archie Bunker, and the things that he said about minorities, women, etc. Archie lived with his wife Edith, daughter Gloria and son-in-law Mike Stivic. I could probably write a series of blogs all about the ways in which the character of Archie angered people, both in the show itself as well as the viewing public. But for this blog post, I want to focus on his son-in-law Mike. Because for me, he was more obnoxious and arrogant than Archie could ever be.
When the series first began, I wasn't even born yet. But I grew up watching reruns, and saw the way in which Archie yelled at and insulted other people. But it would be years before the character of Mike became really significant in my mind. And as I grew older I realized I didn't like Mike one bit. He was just as loud as Archie and was condescending to everyone around him, thinking he was more intelligent and socially aware than anyone. To this day I can visualize how many times I would have turfed him out on his butt if I were Archie and Edith. Did I ever like him? Yes. I liked him a grand total of three times during the series.
1. Edith's Crisis of Faith During Season 8, a two-part episode was featured in which Edith lost a very dear friend who was a drag queen performer. She had always been very religious and could not reconcile her faith in God with the fact that her friend was now deceased. Mike, an atheist, was the one who ultimately helped Edith regain her faith in God by telling her that maybe we are not meant to understand everything that happens to us.
2. Christmas In California During the show's run, Mike got a job offer in California and moved his young family out there to live. By the time Christmas rolled around, however, Mike and Gloria were already separated. When Archie and Edith came to visit them for the holidays, Gloria asked Mike to come home temporarily to keep up the pretense that they were still together, which Mike did. And even when the truth came out and Archie was screaming at him, Mike refused to admit that is it was Gloria, not he, who was having an affair with one of his colleagues.
3. Archie and Mike Locked In A Storage Room When Archie and Mike were locked in a storage room at Archie's bar on a cold wintry night, they kept warm by huddling together and drinking. As Archie became more inebriated, he told Mike about his childhood and his experiences with his own father. For once, Mike let Archie talk without interrupting him or putting him down in any way. And when Archie finally passed out on the floor, Mike covered him up with a tarp they had been using for warmth as he said goodnight to him using a childhood nickname Archie admitted to having.
As much as Mike preached about peace, love and tolerance for his fellow man, he fell short of that at least as often as Archie, maybe even more so. But what Mike can teach all of us is that is that brand of tolerance exists in everyone, even if we rarely get to see it.
Monday, 10 July 2017
I don't like silence. Certainly it is a part of life and there are times when it makes sense to just stay quiet and wait. But if I am watching someone do a gaming video (a "let's play"), I want to hear something from them other than the clicking of keys that is necessary for their next move. I want to know you are having a good time.
There are times during a video game that are less than enthralling. During those times it becomes even more important to engage the viewer. And I think that is what makes the difference between a successful gaming channel and one that is not watched regularly. And then there are channels like mine, which offer a smorgasbord of different types of videos, only to sneak gaming in there nonchalantly when the opportunity presented itself.
This is the thumbnail to one of my gaming videos. And although I am not even close to the likes of manic-sounding PewDiePie, I like to think I offer the viewer a reason to watch the video. And more importantly, I try to offer a reason for them to come back. This is the biggest challenge of video creators. And I have no problem getting blown up in order to do it.
Friday, 7 July 2017
People learn some things when they are kids, like their alphabet and the colors of the rainbow. And some you learn when you are 42 and just tired of being angry and shocked by people who are just as fed up with things as you are. They just found a different way to express it.
'If someone triggers me, it is their problem, not mine.' No it isn't. It's your problem for not being an adult and saying, people are different. That's it. Live and let live. If you want 76 genders and purple hair and people are supposed to accept that but you can't accept a drawing of a cartoon frog, you're the one with the problem. I will freely admit I am not in a position to act as a moral authority. Trust. Me. So why can't you?
'If I see or hear something I don't like, I have to say something.' Why? For what purpose? Now you're being exactly what you are accusing the Kekistani of being - intolerant. Do you really want to be a hypocrite your whole damn life?
Sure, there are things I read that I don't like. There are words and ideas that I am not comfortable with. Thing is, they are just words. And if I let myself get butthurt over them, I am the one who has given them power. I am the one who needs to adjust, to learn to walk away.